Have you ever had one of those days when you see memories? Old pictures of the life you used to have? Or you see photos of the life you imagined for yourself, and it was all planned out, and you just tear up. You don’t miss the old life, it’s more a sadness for the life you thought you were going to have. Sometimes you might even feel like a bit of a failure for letting your kids down, or even yourself because things didn’t go like you thought they would. So many of your dreams feel wasted.

It took me years to realize it but I was wrong. God used all of those memories and moments from long ago to build my character and make me who I am today. A much better version of myself.  I learned so much during the years of my shortcomings and what I thought were major failures. God never once saw me as a disappointment. He always saw me as beautiful in His eyes.

I got a second chance to be a better wife and I love showing my husband how much he means to me. I never miss the moments to show my kids how important they are to me. It’s always my goal to be a better mom to them even though they are grown up and on their own. I never want to stop being the one they turn to when they need me. Most of all I want to be a better follower of Christ. I want to show the world what He is really like. Not the version most have seen, or the mean version people have shown them with judgement. I want to show His love and kindness, so they will want to become followers of Jesus too. If I can be better now as a result of a life changed, that is what I want to be.

©2022 Marsha L. Brown