I used to love roller coasters until my emotions became one. Up and down, twisting and spirally, sometimes even going upside down. Some roller coasters jerk you so hard it even feels like your heart actually moves. I used to love the thrill of reaching the top, the peak of the roller coaster, and I would lift my hands in the air to enjoy the exhilarating plunge, now I am wary of the ride. I want off for a while.

I was thinking about those old-fashioned cars, you know the ones…that go one speed, slow, that are on a track, and you can let a 2-year-old steer.  Rest and peace are what I could use in my life. I need stability, I need God’s ability to be still. If I could trust Him like he says. Trust. Rest. Dwell. Wait. These are words that require patience. I keep wanting to help God run my life as if I could ever do a better job than He could.

I see a pattern in the scriptures, I don’t have to be strong. There is a simply a urging for us rely to on His strength.

I don’t have to be alone. I can live in His presence. I don’t have to be weary. There is a promise of His rest. He renews my strength when I learn to trust him and wait on his timing.

He will do all of this for me and more, simply because I trust Him. Trust is a hard thing to do. It means we are giving everything about ourselves to another person. It was in my musings today that I realized…I don’t even trust God…WOW! God is trustworthy, but I still doubt it. 

Trust is hard for us because we are used to being let down by other people in our lives, so we think that God will also let us down. We have to stop using the same measurements.

Proverbs 3:5-6 – Trust the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own insight. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.

Proverbs 3:19 – You are much wiser than me. How could I ever even try to think I could make better choices for myself?

I have to let God rescue me.

Psalms 18:36 – “You gave me even a wide place for my steps under me, and my feet did not slip.”

Psalms 20:6 – “The Lords SAVES His anointed.”

It is time for me to let go of my fear and trust the one who designed the path. ​

Sometimes we need the roller coaster, other times we should trust the slower pace of the guided car. I think I am going to get off of the roller coaster.